A sense of abstract.

Today was a good day. At the moment I'm stellar.
But the euphoria of when I'm with my friends lasts for another few hours after the great moments have passed. But then I'm once again left with these fucking melancholic thoughts and this website to type shit up on.

I'm too lazy to type many more things about me being a whiny white kid that finds sadness in a life that is offering me many happy days.
Read this poem. I wrote it not long ago, and it's different from everything else I've ever written. It doesn't tell a "story" like other poems do. It's just a list of images, two words put together to paint an unnerving painting of mystery.

It will mean a different thing to everyone of you. Because, like I've said many times before, we all react to everything in a different way. The picture or painting will be ridiculously different in every single one of your minds.

Let the confusion ingulf and embrace you.
This is just to give you a sense of abstract.

Sundown Forever

Little brother.
Bad paperdoll.
Disgraced mother.
Emergency call.

Hit the ground.
Weep again.
Hear the sound.
Avoid the train.

Dive to sea.
Crave hereafter.
Climb the tree.
Escape the cluster.

Break the cycle.
Freeze the fever.
Weak disciple.
Sundown forever.

Stoned for more.
See the light.
Make it sore.
Close it tight.

Sit back and cry.
Destroy the den.
Crawl away, die.
And start again.

Why am I still posting depressive shit on this site when I'm so happy in the daytime?

On these slow nights when I don't go out, I'll always turn back to this blog. It's fucking stupid really.

I was sliding away but chasing the sun is easier.
I'm still stupidly happy during the day and on some nights. But not now. Right now, I'm in a self-induced trance, reaching inside the pit of my guts to bring you some of the neat and fluid strings of sentences that I type out here. These sentences that you probably think will give you the answer to life.

I don't know anything really.
All I know is that I'm still fucking typing.
But you know, I've still got plenty of stuff to ramble and rant about.
Just to let you know, I'm not going away just yet.