Infernal tradition.

It's all about the prevention isn't it?
It's about stopping us younger kids from getting the cigarettes, the drugs, the alcohol. Just like you tried with our 20 year old older brothers and sisters that are now our idols. Well they ended up pretty fucked up didn't they? But the worst part is that we know what's gonna happen. We know the consequences. We know the dangers, the taboos. We know what will happen to our lungs and brain. We know how bad and irresponsible we look. 

And we are going to make no attempt whatsoever, to go in the other direction. None.
We pretend to want to be healthy, a model teenager. But we know that we'll end up the same. We even want it. Soon we'll be the ones intoxicated by a lot of illegal substances, and getting laid with someone that isn't your girlfriend or boyfriend every saturday night.

We are the heirs, the descendants. The next ones up. The classes way above have finished school and are already regretting and cutting down. 

But we still need it. All that bad shit. And we honestly know that it's hypocritical, but the social pressure and the human need is too great. The choice is too simple for us fucked up young people.

We won't follow advice, for as long as we can. Until the day when we'll end up on the rocky shores of adulthood, with all our idols. Now very similar to us.

And we'll drown in misery and regret, trying desperately to cut down and to tell all our selfish kids that they shouldn't fall into the same trap
we fell into. 

But we know, they'll do just the same. They too will have that goal of fucking up. And then it'll be all about the prevention again, only we'll be the ones trying to prevent.
And they will be the ones ignoring us, and continuing that infernal tradition.

I don't know what my gain is really. Sitting in total darkness writing this down for a website not many people know exists. I just think it reminds me of what's coming, and all the traditions lying ahead.